Can You really hear me?

Sometimes i really wonder, can He really hear me? The problem that I worried so much is solve within 24 hours. It was so amazing. He is more and more real in my life. I know that He is working in my life. But will be happening soon I did not know. All I know is just to trust in Him and do my best to help the youth. Although sometimes the youth is so stubborn but as they grow I can see changes within them. I am so glad. Time really flies~ The youth that I knew last time is no longer the same. They have move to the next stages in their life. New problem arose! Hahahaha. Although is a problem but I still can laugh. Do you think I am crazy? I think I am. Problem are mean to face and not run away. Responsibility is what I have learn so far. Never ever run away from problem and always admit it when you are wrong.

My life

Who in this world doesn't want a quite and peaceful life? I guess almost 80% of the people want it. But does it mean that one can get what he or she want? I don't think so. In all my life I wanted this in my life but it seldom happen. Sometimes I really felt like running away to a place where I can that I can really find peace and quiteness. Living a life as I am now is really frustrating. I am really fed up of all the rushing and hectic. I don't like at all! I just want my life back! I want my time back! I want to run far far away from this place! To a place where no body recognise me! I just want to live in peace! To a place without any problem, without any struggle. I know this seems like i wanted to suicide where I can no longer struggle. But this is not what I meant. I raeally wanted to run away from my life now. From the way, the situation I am in right now. Everytime I saw little kids playing around, I'll envy them because I wanted to be like them. So naive, so happy! They don't seems to have any trouble or any sorrow. The only things they are afraid of is their mum. Is when their mum chasing them with the cane. But their life are still so colourful. Full of joy and peace! I am wondering what colour is my life now? Black, white, blue or.......? I really do not know. I am really feeling the stress now even though I am so far away ( seems to be ). Everytime i thought of going back to that place I can feel the stress coming. My heart pumping more and more faster. My body become so warm! My heart is trembling, my brain is cracking, my life is struggling! I can feel the time rush! The time is not my own anymore! I don't have my own time in that place. It is a place full of trouble, full of complaning, full of argument, full of negative thought and full of hectic! I do not want to stuck in this situation anymore. This is not what I ask for. All I ever wanted is a happy and peaceful life. Why is this so hard to achieve? IS THIS POSSIBLE IN MY LIFE NOW? I am really helpless now! Even though how much I wanted to run away but my conscious doesn't allow me to do so!