H.O.P.E

Sometimes we may think that miracles do happen in our life but many times is not what we think it is. It may seems like you have a second chance and eventually it is once again taken away from you. In that moment, your heart pounces as if you are on the roller coaster. I've once heard this hope stands for hold on pains end but in reality the more I hold the more pain I experience. Sometimes is not holding on or letting go that matters, what matters is whether this miracles belong to you or not? If it is not applicable in your life, why hold on? Holding on or letting go is your own decision. Is just like evaluating a stock market, to hold on to the share or to let go of the share is your very own choice. Once decision is made, you win or you loss it all depends on you. You cannot blame others for your loss. Is just that you are not skillful or mature enough to made an accurate decision. Life has to go on no matter in what circumstances. Time wait for no one. I think this phrase many of us has actually heard of it but how many really utilize their time fully and meaningfully? I guess out of 10 only 1 will do. This is reality and we have to face it. People grow old each day and we have to come out to face the world someday. Till then only you will realize fairy tales are no more than just a lie to the kids so that they can have hope in their life. But this hope eventually will come to an end when they are old enough to realize that there are no such things as fairy tales. 

In this particular moment, my feeling can only be describe by one word "PAIN". I've always thought that I am mature enough to see through things and people but I am wrong. The reality is I've never know how. I've always thought I can stand in different perception and different point of view in order to know and feel what they feel but this time my eyes are blinded, my ear deaf and heart is broken. The fact is I am just a simple person that doesn't even know how to express myself. I've always heard this phrase since i am young " no one knows you other than yourself " but in this moment I does not know a single thing about myself. My so called intuition, self perception are nothing but just a bunch of rubbish. People view me as smart ass but i view myself as one who doesn't even know about himself. This is ME. How can a person understands and be able to read others when he himself doesn't even know about himself. This is totally a joke. The most important part is I've never understand and know the person I care and love the most. Even other people know more than I do. The heart breaking moment come back instantly! Till this point, I am speechless.

有言难说

此刻的心情就像心如刀割。好想和她说我的感受但是怕说了会令她难受。我不想她被夹在中间令她难做。我希望我能够学习的去接受。每当，看见他们两那么的亲切我都会不舒服。所以我另可不看。真希望我有颗大量的心。