It never failed to cause this feeling to me every single time I am going back there. The feeling of stress, burden and all kinds of negative emotion just rush all into my thought and emotion. I am really stress up going back there. This place was once called my home where I can find joy, laughter and peace. But now it was never going to be the same again. Home is always defined as a place where one can find comfort, love, happiness and caring. However, during the past few years everything had changed. I don't remember how long I really felt happiness and joy in that place again. It was like ages ago not that I can remember. Thinking back those day, how we had party, gathering, chit-chatting, having fellowship together but now it was all gone. All that is left, is just a place filled with all these memories.
How can a place once I called home will become like this? I never choose any of this in my life. I never choose to commit anything. I just want to be normal just like other people around me. I want to see the world, I want pursue my study, my dreams, my goal. But I just can't. Do I even have a choice? I am just feeling so trap in this life that I am having now. It's just like I am tied down by all these stuff. I am just not ready to commit in all these. I really hope that I can live like a normal teenager like everyone does, have a normal university life, a normal relationship. There are much that I couldn't say, that I couldn't express!
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